I ama such a ...

I ama such a stupid,stupid,stupid,stupid idiot!!!!!! When will I learn to just take things at face value and not read into it. ARRGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It simple I must love putting myself through this stupid sensless toture and see how bad I can make it. It's no one's fault but my own. I only go after guys I can't have or are remotely interested in me for anything. If I do have sex with them they think that will get rid of me. I am just simpleton witha glutton for pain and punishment. Oneday I am gonna stress myself out over this and my head will explode. Maybe then I will be happy. Maybe I can do better this quarter and just focus on school, Yeah right. Oh well