I must really la...

I must really lack social skills , seems I can't keep a conversation going with someone they all stop talking to me after a very short time. One guy I guess I pissed off cause I was like back up before I tell you my REAL name you beter tell me about you, share a pic if you have one, talk to me first? and he was kind offended by that cause he wanted it to be something more than a picture exchange. Hell I look at it this way, Ok you know what I look like regardless of how well we hit it off if I am not interested in you physically AIN"T NOTHING EVER! EVER! EVER! gonna happen unless you are lucky enough to be around me when I will actually let myself relax enough and get drunk ( ok well more buzzed than I would ever let myself be in public). So I am shallow, I want my cake and I want eat it too!I do not want to compromise on my wants anymore, If I can't find someone that I think is physically hot as hell to me and I can enjoy being around regardless of how much we talk as long as we do comminicate and a little list of other wants and desires and and requirements. Then I am gonna fucking stay single and celibate or hell I might just make my dad happy and try the other sex. I don't get this shit about you still young you got time. WHo cares if I got time, and how do they know how long I am gonna live!? Ok yeah over simplifying it a bit, butt come on, I really don't want to be 55 or older when I find someone, I know a good portion of my HS class is married, engaged, pregnant, already has kids, divorced, graduated , and business owners. and here I am still in school single broke, ok so the having kids ain't bothering me much other thanI don't know if I would want to be a father. and I know I want to get married! despite waht the fucking country says I am all for moving out of this shit hole country to somewhere that would accpt me having a husband and I probably could make a good living there too. You know what I think I am just gonna pull down all my profiles and just hide for awhile, its not like they are doing me any good. Ok till next surge of emotion and thoughts. which might be in 2 min